So before I decided this journey of positivity was something I personally wanted to venture into, I did some research. Everyday I will post my progress, phycologists exercises, and inspirations daily. I found myself over the summer in a rut. I found myself being so used to disorder and after all the experiences we had that I didn't understand how to take advantage of when things are going good. I was staying home with my babies as I've always wanted. My husband was working overtime. I needed to do something other than parks and peanut butter sandwiches. So after my husband lost his job, I got active. This motivated me in a way I have never felt before. To get up and to see what my home state that I love enough to come back to (after everywhere we had been) has to offer. So I got a job and it was amazing. I stilled found myself complaining and upset. Then it happened, a person who I had known for years decided that talking to me wasn't making her happy anymore. I cannot say I blame her because what I was doing, was something she had done for years. I had no reason to hate my life, no reason to feel alone, and yet I still felt unfulfilled. I didn't know what I fully wanted out of life. Everything I wanted I had achieved. It took me a lot less time to start a family than I imagined it would. Now I've come to realize that being around negative people in negative situations had taken a toll on my mind, my body, the way I took care of myself. I started exercising and that helped but I still felt tired. When the new year came I made an inspiration. This year I am going to become a more positive person. Not for anyone else, not to keep people in my life, or to prove someone wrong, but for myself because I deserve it.