This year getting healthy means everything to me. Including healthy realization on past friendships and why they didn't work out. Not everybody you meet in life is ment to continue the journey with you. Sometimes people come and based on their or your intentions, can stay for awhile, and continue on their own journey. Now, this used to upset me a great deal. It seemed no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't make everyone happy, and its not even possible. Looking back every time a relationship ended it was for the best. Negative people, people who use, and vanity has no place in a journey to find positivity, health, harmony and recovery.
This isn't court, there's no judge. It is not my business what anyone thinks of me. All that matters is living clean, providing, and how you perceive your own life. Most people have more about themselves to worry about, than worrying what someone else has to say about them. We all make mistakes. Depression is a sneaky little bugger and it is contagious, but so is a smile. :D
I have seen so many people I cared about go through some pretty rocky situations, relationships, and hard times. It's okay to care, worry, and have compassion for these people. It's not ok, to worry excessively, or try to fix people. No one in this world will ever change just because you want then to. If someone truly cares about themselves they will do it for themselves.
Self love and self care start from loving yourself, and treating yourself with kindness, love, and understanding. You can't be everything to everyone. But you are everything to the people that matter the most.
I believe sometimes its not about what your letting go of thats so hard, but the concept of letting go in general can be the hardest.